Little Heart (25-12-08)

Little heartbeat in the dark.
I lost you before I knew I had you, 
ended, before you could start...

...Thinking of you little heart, 
with a longing question mark:
would, 
could, 
should, 
what if?

So still now, little heart.

love, Mum.

Pressed but not Crushed

Well, so much has happened that I really don't know where to begin.

 

Francis was unfairly dismissed and we suddenly found ourselves facing a very serious and urgent crisis. Zero income for at least 4 months.

My businesses are tailored around the school terms and as the end of year November approached my paychecks were disappearing and would only reappear mid to end January. We were faced with a choice. To move out of our beautiful little house and rent it (in an attempt to save it) or, stay put and wait until the banks closed in and we lost everything.

We sold our beautiful Opel Astra 1.4 essentia and bought a 2000 Peugeot XL Stationwagon (loving it!!)

My beloved Grandmother stepped in and offered a solution. My Mother also stepped in and offered her support (without which we would be eating dry pasta every night) and so, we have found ourselves at the beginning of January, out of our home and living in my Grandmother's house.

My mother has kindly given her Granny flat to my Gran, allowing us to live in the bigger house, next door to my Mum. We breathe a sigh of relief while crying tears of sadness as we say goodbye to our home.

 

Today I stood and let the tears roll as I looked at my garden, my trees, lavenders, my snap-dragons, my portulacas, my fig tree and my porch, remembering my three dogs (we now have one) running to greet me. I went inside and saw my rooms empty. My murals seem out of place without my photo's and furniture. Francis and I were emotional saying a fond farewell to the baby room that we so lovingly prepared for Savanna Rae only 11.5 months ago. We thought that she would grow up there with her siblings one day…

And yet, in spite of the sadness, we are so touched by the amazing opportunity afforded to us, we will be bond free for a while thanks to the trade in of the car, and the rental that we'll get from the house. It means that we can begin again and re-grow ourselves. We were so close to paying off the house – nine years away in fact. We intend to pay it off even sooner now. We have both found ourselves at the foot of potentially great job opportunities.

 

I am going to buy myself the new Mac Power-book this year (with the earnings from my show company I can get it on HP) and then I can start to record my first full album. I am so excited about it – I'm hiring my Mum to promote me… she's a natural ;) I also want to get my first short film under wraps. As soon as I am set up I will follow through on this… Francis and I are fully motivated to get ourselves right. I couldn't possibly write all of our plans down but know this – we are pressed but not crushed. Persecuted – not abandoned. Struck down – but not destroyed. 2 Corinthians 4:9

 

Sands x

 

Update as promised...

It's by no means a short novel but here it is... my little update, as I think of things I'll post them.

 

Savanna Rae Grace is growing growing growing! I can hardly keep up with her these days, she moves at the speed of sound.

She is too cute - one nice thing about Franc being home (job hunting like a neo-hominid man) is that he is spending hours of great quality time with Sav.

She just adores him, wrinkling her nose at him, kissing his forehead, practically stagediving out of my arms to crawl all over him, packing the dishwasher with him, playing in the laundry while he works there. It's awesome.

 

We have made a big decision, we have found ourselves at a cross roads regarding our home bond, we had the option of moving in with family - a great escape if needed. But we woke up on Saturday and knew that we were going to trade in our gorgeous Opel Astra Essentia for a cheaper larger car (will suit my business needs better then the Opel) and would help with bond payments. Well, we decide to drive out at about 2pm and had a look around... well, we looked around one place. Nissan, I walked from the front to the back of the showroom with a distinct car in mind...and there it was! It was immaculate, the right price and was a Peugeot 306 1.6L station wagon - nice for family trips and for moving gear and equipment to shows ; )

 

Well, we ended up dealing with Kobus Kruger and it seemed like we would be able to get our price and everything. On Sunday we decided to have another look around seeing as we had only seen the one showroom, well, the only other cars in that price range were little banged up Corsa Lights.

 

We went in Monday and did the prelim paperwork, took the 16hundred for a spin and loved it. God is good.

 

Oh yes - I HAVE LOST 8KGS in 8WEEKS ; )

 

Sands x

Father and Daughter

Thought you'd all agree to the STRIKING resemblance...

 

will type up an update soon - got lots to share xx

 

much love

--
Regards,


S. Doherty-Bigara
Paw Paw Productions
Pinetown
Durban
www.pawpawsa.blogspot.com
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"Education through drama, action, dance and laughter"

Just remembering...

Savanna was two weeks old. Johannesburg for a week of training... wow.

My little one...

She's getting so big these days...

Granny Joan is 80!

Just thought I would share this BEAUTIFUL photograph of my Gran at her 80th. Taken by my Aunt Terri ~ Happy Birthday Gran!

BABEEEEEEEEEE!

Cristine had her baby girl Ashlyn Kate Dyer! Yay! What a birth Story... as soon as Cris posts it I will post a ink - I heard a little bit about it and MAN that woman is a machine!

Keep well,

 

Sands x

Two Bits of news

Ok I AM SHOOTING A MOVIE IN DECEMBER YAAY! Very excited:

 

Robert's Secret

Movie Debut – Experimental Recording 2008

Cast:

Sylvia              D'Laine Bok

Jervaine          Rylan De Esclana

Ruyana           Roxanne Porter

David               Brian Khumalo

Robert             Francis Bigara

James mc'C   Marc Sadler

Mindy Parker  Tylisha Sadler

Photography

Kimswanphotography (tentative)

Blaise Walker Photography

Paw Paw Productions SA

Music

The Bigara Music Studio

 

And secondly, MY BABY CAN TALK!! At 9.5months she says Mama, Daddy, Gangan, Yum, Up and DoTah (don't touch) She shows me where her daddy is by pointing him out to me or taking me to him (crawling to him wherever he is!) She is such a funny bunny, she stayed with my mum this weekend and came back making the strangest noises (we have had comments from strangers and friends already) I only just realized that my Mum was doing "farm animals" with her and she's making animal noises… kinda like a moo-pig-chicken noise! Haha She also has a new facial expression – I have NEVER seen her do it before and now she does it all day, to anyone who looks at her! She crinkles her nose and shows her gums. I realized that my Mum does that expression when she smiles and makes faces at Savanna! Ha ha ha – little copycat!

 

Ok. Gotta go sleep now.

 

Sands x

Meet The Cast!

Introducing the cast of Stop!

 

Roxanne Porter a super talented dynamite of a girl! She effortlessly conveys our message of Safety to the adoring crowds of children. Roxanne is 21 years old, from Durban. If you need a female actress or MC for evening gigs, School Events, Sports Days or Fund Raisers, please call 0722273075 or email us at admin.pawpaw@gmail.com

 

Brian Khumalo a surprise star! Brian clawed his way to success after going through TWO rounds of auditions to land the role of STOP. He is clear, precise and has become the backbone of the team... If you are needing an MC or Facilitator for any weekend or evening gigs, such as 21st's or Corporate Events then please call 0722273075 or email us at admin.pawpaw@gmail.com

 

Rylen De Esclana our very own John Travolta! Rylen has been with PPPSA since it's conception in 2007, his dedication and energy are only overshadowed by his immense talent as a singer, dancer and actor. This man is going places! If you are needing an MC or Facilitator for any evening or weekend functions, Beauty Pageants or Shows please call 0722273075 or email us at admin.pawpaw@gmail.com

 

PPPSA is so pleased to welcome such talent into the Durban Drama and Entertainment scene, the three actors will be joined by D'laine Bok in December for the filming of the short film "Robert's Secret" in Durban.

 

Good Luck Guys!

 

x The Paw Paw Team