The Saddened Blog…

I suppose that even a comedic blogger is allowed to write a sad blog at least once right?

 

I am battling with a sad situation at the moment, I think that a very good friend of mine, no, an excellent, special friend of mine is going through a hard time.

I suppose this, as opposed to knowing it, because I haven't had a decent conversation with her in over two months. I am not really sure what has happened, we were close, we spoke often, laughed often, hugged, smiled, chatted and were silly together. Now I feel like we don't know each other anymore. I want to reach out but there is a wall of glass around her, impenetrable, she is away and her chat light is red, offline, out to lunch permanently.

 

I hear her speaking and there is a sadness there that I can't help with, a heaviness I can't help to carry, and desolate emptiness that I can't help to fill. She hardly laughs, and when she does the corners of her mouth turn down as if the smile is too heavy for her. Her mischievous nature is sleeping. Her ferocious munchkin-ness is dormant.

 

I don't know what to do. A short while ago I saw her again, in the middle of a visit she stepped out of her skin, I nearly jumped on her because I recognised her.

 

I hope that this is a passing faze, that it is just a season, a time in her life.

 

I hope that it is nothing that I have done.

 

I really hope that it is nothing that I have done.

 

It is strange, I miss her like she is out of the country when she just lives up the road from me.

 

 

 

 

You are still one of my closest friends, someone who I shared so much of my pregnancy with, my fears, thoughts and emotions. You are still important to me, to us. I am still here for you.

 

Sands x